How are you doing this week? It's a funny old-time and no matter how you feel you need to make peace with where you are at. This is where I have been, in my hermit space, horribly uncomfortable figuring things out.
After my crazy house move three weeks from start to finish, totally unexpected, which is typically me, everything I do has to happen in a frantic rush, impatient and last minute don't even come close to describing me
September has always been my crazy month, this year was no exception, a toxic and painful divorce came to an end, I moved from my family home of 11years, my role as mum and provider changed and my beautiful sons moved forwards towards independence, their own lives, it was time for change for all of us.
Don’t get me wrong I have always loved change, I am a Gemini, and we are known for being easily bored so yes I thrive on a challenge, but here’s the thing what happens on the other side? Normally without a blink of an eye, a moment to draw breath I am onto the next thing the next challenge what can I do next at breakneck speed - I say this because this is the way it always happens.
We are not in Kansas anymore Toto was going to be the title of this post because that's how I feel, if you are old enough to remember the original Wizard of Oz (love this movie as is choc-full of symbolism) then can you conjure up the scene where Dorothy is whizzing around in the hurricane on a chair and she lands with a bump turns to her little dog and says those words we are not in Kansas anymore Toto that was me right there with a bang
So I unpacked, I moved in, I set up my new life, I launched a business course, I walked the dog, saw friends and thought now what, and for the first time in my life I decided to do something differently I decided to make new choices horrible ones! - I decided to be, to sit with the most uncomfortable feeling of not knowing what’s next? And more importantly not caring, not planning not writing to-do lists just to sit back and be still in the silence THE HARDEST THING I HAVE EVER DONE. I am a hundred tabs open person, I am someone who listens to a podcast and will try to write or read a book at the same time, insane I know.
The thing is you cannot create from a disempowered place, we have to come back to our own internal well, our inner wisdom, source, guidance however you want to define it I had to come home to me, get my house in order, realign with my purpose
Maybe this is your best year ever, or you might be feeling like you have had the rug pulled out from underneath you, but if you are feeling stressed then you are not in your flow and you need self-care for you and your business to nourish.
The beauty is that you have constant access to tap into this knowledge, to engage with this guidance and wisdom, all you have to do is create the space..... yoga, pilates or simply meditation on your mat, infact anything that suspends your current reality is where you can push the reset button, create a pause and it's in this space that the creativity flourishes, the inspiration comes, you begin to flow again, and you get right back in your power!